Birthdays Are My Enemy!

Ok so not birthdays, just birthday cakes.

Oh and graduation cakes, going way cakes, congratulations cakes, wedding cakes, bridal shower cakes, baby shower cakes.

OK OK so maybe cakes are the enemy!?!

But that is just too hard to admit.

They look so good and they taste even better! I should know because right now I have a 1/4 sheet cake in my kitchen.

I would love to tell you that I have been exercising great self-control. I would love to tell you that I have only had one piece or even two......but I can't. In the past three days, I have consumed more cake then any normal person should.

I would love to blame my husband for sabotaging my diet, but is it really his fault he had a birthday??

Changes

Things are constantly changing.

Recently my work schedule changed. I still work third shift, but I now come in an hour earlier. Also I just got promoted to full time....YEAH!! This means my eating schedule is so messed up. I now get hungry in the middle of the night and still want to eat three meals during the day. I have tried saving my snacks for while I'm at work but so far.....not really helping!

Another big change is that every six weeks my sleep schedule has to change. This causes major problems in......you guessed it my appetite.

If I ever lose this weight it will be nothing short of a miracle!

Good News!

In spite of my extreme slacking off in exercising and my continuing to drink soft drinks and iced coffee......

I lost 5 pounds!!!

Self Esteem

I used to have a lot of self esteem. I never doubted that I was funny, outgoing, and lets not forget beautiful.

Then I had kids.

Now I am extremely overweight, sleep deprived, and stressed to the max.

Is it really a surprise that now I have no self esteem?